KIDNAPPED BLOG: Locked and Loaded by Alex S. Johnson


Locked and Loaded

by Alex S. Johnson

I am an insect. A worm. Something gross. Gratuitous, a phantom limb.

That is how you see me, right? But that perception is incorrect. You must come to terms with the fact that I exist, and my existence is not dependent on your acknowledgement of it. Mister Rock Star. Mister Spin Magazine. Mister Rolling Stone. Mister Self-Destruct/Burnout/Fallout, every misstep greedily devoured by the press and vomited out for public consumption. You stare down from rock and roll Valhalla, never wondering about the speck in your eye. A plank, really.

Even though I’ve been with you every step of the way. And have helped, at times profoundly.

Remember your first record deal? When everybody in the industry who counted said you’d lost an engine on the runway. Your shenanigans with gangsters, drawing attention to yourself on the most negative level. As if you were hardcore, growing up in the suburbs with all the rights and privileges pertaining. And that girl, the redhead, the junkie–she didn’t do you any favors either. What was her name, Katrina? A real piece of work. If you didn’t realize that those track marks weren’t from insulin shots, you’re either a bigger fool than I ever suspected, or steeped in denial up to your eyeballs.

That was when I stepped in. I had to work hard behind the scenes, believe me. Hard out there for a ghost. Well, not a ghost so much as one of the host. Hey, that rhymes. Rhymes one hell of a lot better than most of your lyrics.

Are you paying attention now?

Apparently not. But that’s okay. I can be extremely patient.

You have no idea how patient I am capable of being.

Which is why it doesn’t really bother me that you refuse to accept, have historically blinded yourself to me, my reality, the care and concern I have for you.

Your future, your career.

If I wanted to, and trust me, I have the skills, I could MAKE you see me. Work some serious Tim Burton mojo. Make Beetlejuice look like Bambi. Bloodshot eyes on springs, oh yes; sloppy jaws spewing all kinds of rubbish, banging on your closet door when you’re shacked up with the conquest du jour.

But I’m not about the big bad noise. More of a creeper.

Like about now, for example. As you stuff the Bolivian Gross National Product up your nose, handlers and roadies all nervous, your agent trying to reach you on your cell which you won’t answer because he’ll probably want to lecture you like your mom always used to do. And you left that scene behind you long ago. I know. I was there too.

So what are you waiting for? The crowd is screaming your name. Two hundred and fifty thousand fans jammed into the biggest venue you’ve ever played. The Daulton Amphitheater, that’s a serious showcase. And the sooner you get your pampered ass out on that stage, the quicker you can run through your set. Yeah, all those songs.

But maybe you’re stalling because, at some level, you know what I say is true.

Lots of time. Oceans. I’ll let you process that.

Feel that numbness creeping up your left foot? Knock knock knocking on heaven’s empty bone. Whatever that means–you insisted on those lines. But if the shoe fits…

Trying to provide a little humor here. But you’re beyond that, obviously.

It’s not me, man. I know it’s hard to swivel your leatherclad hips and shake your tubesnake when you can’t feel your leg. Naturally you’ve collapsed on your side and your guitarist jumped in front of you, make it look like part of the show. To tell the truth, I don’t know what in Hell is wrong with you. Embolism? Lack of blood circulation due to the Bolivian, maybe. But I didn’t do it. I might have warned you that you needed to slow down, I mean in a general way. But specifically, the dead hand spreading its fingers across your belly? That’s a medical crisis, not a spiritual condition.

Of course, I can’t let you fall on your face now. Not with all these people paying good money to see you not make a total ass of yourself. Career suicide is simply not an option. You’ll have to save that for when you’re Old Elvis-sized and playing county fairs. Never mind the Fluffy Bunnies, here’s the Doom Hippies.

Shouldn’t have locked me out, dude. Unwise. Should have locked me in and loaded me into your chamber. But then you wouldn’t stumble and hurt yourself, and who cares about a rock star who isn’t damaged? Playing the world’s fool has been a real boost for your sales. Up until the fool became a drooling idiot. Half the audience is simply here for the sake of curiosity. Bunch of ghouls, if you ask me. Looky-loo’s at the three-lane pileup. But they’re OUR ghouls.

The good news is that now I have a port of entry. You wouldn’t give me one of your own will, but I’m not embarrassed to take a little advantage of a sick man. Especially when it’s for his own good.

So here’s Black Daniels, lead singer of the heaviest and slowest band in the history of metal, back on his feet. Maybe staggering a little bit. But he’s moving, and his eyes are open, responding to external stimuli.

Please don’t worry. I know exactly what I’m doing. And you have a better than front row seat. Hell, you’re so close to the action, you practically are the action.

I lean into the mike, and the peeps go nuts. Wipe my mouth–tastes like the last funeral of rubbish. (You really need to stop smoking, dude.) Count down the intro one more time. Savor the moment, the adrenaline rush, the band crunching behind me, infinite sustain, one chord per minute. The drummer nodding out between beats. The bassist taking a smoke break.

The ones that actually pay attention to the lyrics look a little shocked. Yeah, it’s not the words they heard on the album. These are of a superior class.

“And when you made your sacrifice to me

you offered up your soul to steal

such gives me bliss, I can’t resist

wolfed down quick, a starving man’s meal…”

But no, not so fast. You’re still not paying attention.

I’m not Lucifer.

I’m the one who came next.

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Review: Irish Ghost Stories by Patrick Byrne

In the mood for some fun ghost tales from the wilds of Ireland? Check out Irish Ghost Stories by Patrick Byrne.


Irish Ghost Stories contains stories that tell of spooky goings-on in almost every part of the country. They include the tales of the Wizard Earl of Kildare, the Scanlan Lights of Limerick, Buttoncap of Antrim, Maynooth College’s haunted room, Loftus Hall in Wexford, and an account of how the poet Fancis Ledwidge appeared to an old friend in County Meath. The country of Ireland is full of old castles with secret rooms, and while some of the stories are obvious figments of lively imaginations, there are other tales that cannot be easily explained.

While many of these stories are quaint hearsay and exaggerated truths, they are fun to read. The location and historical details are interesting and probably mean more to those who live in the area. I especially like to read these aloud during a fireside gathering. They lend themselves to a storytelling sort of atmosphere and are fun to share.

My favorite tales are:

“Murder Hole”, which is a door on a high floor with no outlet but a 50 foot drop to your death.

“Devil’s Horse”, which tells of a late night customer at a blacksmith. When the blacksmith is done, he’s paid in gold and the customer’s cloven feet walk away. After the customer is gone, the blacksmith finds what he thought was gold, is glass.

This book also tells of ladies in white, banshees, and all the fun stuff ghost lovers have come to enjoy. 108, Alexander Beresford

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Live Action Reviews by Crystal Connor: Devil

Live Action Reviews

by Crystal Connor



PDevil_film_posterlotline: Five strangers trapped in an elevator realize that one of them is the Devil in this thriller from director John E. Dowdle (Quarantine) and screenwriter Brian Nelson (Hard Candy, 30 Days of Night). The first installment of “The Night Chronicles,” a film series in which up-and-coming filmmakers bring to life stories conceived by M. Night Shyamalan, Devil opens to find five Philadelphia office workers filing into the elevator of an inner-city office building. But a typical day at the office takes a  sudden detour into terror when the elevator becomes stuck between floors, and the passengers discover that the Devil does exist, and he’s standing right before them. As emergency workers work frantically to free them, secrets are revealed and the passengers realize their only hope for survival is to confront their darkest sins in front of the others. ~ Jason Buchanan, Rovi for Rotten Tomatoes

Scariness Factor: One a scale of 1 to 5 I would say 3. They’re mostly jump scares and for a connoisseur of all things horror, I can usually see them coming

Gross-out Factor:  N/A.

High Points: I am a huge fan of religious themed horror entertainment. I love all the hidden-in-plain-sight symbolism and the deliberate use of words. This was the 2nd time watching Devil and it was way more fun because I saw all the stuff  I missed when I 1st saw it.

One of the things I really liked was the scenes shot in total darkness. Just like those trapped in the elevator you can see anything but you can hear what’s going on which adds to the tension. I also loved the way the spoken narrative was woven into the movie

Complaints: Shyamalan takes us all the way to the edge but then kinda phones in the ending to give us a somewhat happy one. So instead of it being a thoroughly terrifying experience it’s just a highly startling one.

Overall: I think watching horror movies should be an ‘interactive’ activity (which is why I watch them alone) and the more I yell at the people on the screen the more fun I’m having and Devil is really fun, like being on a roller coaster. Watching it again was like hanging out with an old friend I haven’t seen in a while.

Stars: 3 ½ Stars

~~~Diary Entries~~~


At 1:30 am on Aug 15th, 2014, Crystal Connor, wrapped in a fleece blanket, seated in front of the fireplace picked up her remote and clicked play.  For the next two hours her neighbors were subjected to screaming, crying, and expletive outburst…


This is the unedited journal chronicling the harrowing experience her neighbors were forced to endure as she watched, for the 2nd time M.Night Shyamalan’s 2010 Devil


Reader discretion is Advised


Entry 1: And they’re trapped.


Entry 2: Clearly he’s claustrophobic


Entry 3: Why does the engineer always look like that? We don’t look like that in real life. Come on!


Entry 4: HOLY SHIT! Lol that scared the shit outta me.


Entry 5: I told you, he’s claustrophobic


Entry 6: lol, a captive audience


Entry 7: What the fuck? You know better. See! Dumb ass


Entry 8: They’re already there


Entry 9: No its not and that’s not Jesus


Entry 10: What the fuck?


Entry 11: LOL


Entry 12: Fine then, don’t listen to him


Entry 13: Yeah you are cus your not listening


Entry 14: Stay your ass where you are!


Entry 15: No engineering in their right mind would do that without safety gear! Serously?!


Entry 16: And that’s why.


Entry 17: My dog is growling at the TV, even she knows better


Entry 18: The last thing I would want to hear at that moment would be prayers uttered in Latin


Entry 19: Oh my God the fire dept is tearing shit up


Entry 20: Oh for fucks sake!


Entry 21: Are you trained to do that? Then leave it alone.


Entry 22: DON’T!


Entry 23: I fucking told you.


Entry 24: Excuse me Captain-save-a-hoe but that’s not your job


Entry 25: You don’t.


Entry 26: Sweet Jesus


Entry 27: OMG that’s right!


Entry 28: That bitch didn’t just fix her hair.


Entry 29: And M. Night for the win



Washington State native Crystal Connor has been terrorizing readers since before Jr. high School and loves anything to do with monsters, bad guys, rogue scientific experiments, jewelry, sky-high high heel shoes & unreasonably priced hang bags. She is also considering changing her professional title to ‘dramatization specialist’ because it’s so much more theatrical than being just a mere drama queen. Crystal’s latest projects can be found both on her blog and Facebook fan page at:


BayCon Horror Buzz – What’s Hot, What’s Not

The BayCon Horror panel was awesome! Nice seeing all of you and chatting with authors Laurel Anne Hill and J. Malcolm Stewart! I always enjoy taking notes on what we talk about and letting your feedback steer our show and feedback topics.

ha panel


For all of you who couldn’t make it, you might be wondering what the horror buzz is. Here is a list of what the panelist and audience talked about. Do you agree with the list? Would you like to add anything?

+ means the majority liked it
– means the majority didn’t like it
? means none of us have seen it or have an opinion one way or another, or that it was a such a quick mention, we didn’t have time to discuss it.


+The Purge


+The Conjuring



+V/H/S 2


+Pig Hunt

+Troll Hunter

? Insidious

? Insidious 2

-Godzilla w/Brodrick


+Jeffery Ford / Crackpot Palace

+The Orphans of the Creek / Richard S. Todd

+Stephen King / Full Dark No Stars

+Peter Straub / Shadowland & Ghost Story

+Seanan McQuire / Zombie trilogy

+Wrath James Waite / Voracious

+Peter Stenson / Fiend

+Kim Newman / Anno Dracula – Johnny Alucard


+Penny Dreadful





-Bates Motel

-Witches of East End

?Rosemary’s Baby

?American Horror Story

?Witches of Eastwick series

Coming up – we are excited about

? The Purge 2

? Omen Series

? Insidious 3

? Phantasm 5

? Conjuring 2

? Paranormal Activity 4

? found footage Friday the 13th

? new Poltergiest

Want a remake

Motel Hell

The Car

Terror Train


Wish they weren’t gone – must watch

Hammer films

1951 The Thing

Full Moon – Subspecies, Vampire Journals


So, online crew, what are your thoughts?

13 Questions with Arlene Radasky

I hope all you Horror Addicts out there had a great St. Patrick’s Day! This week our author is none other than returning Wicked Women Writer, Arlene Radasky.

For HA episode 38: Devil / Possession, she has written a short story titled The Nibblers. “My story about the devil is not as scary as some of the other stories you have had on, but I hope it makes you wonder what will happen…It was not easy to write, I don’t really believe in the devil but I do believe some people are very evil. That is the route of my story.”

When asked for a sneak-peek of the story Arlene told me, “Imagine the devil and his demons creating an evil person from a very nice young man.”

It was interesting to learn that Radasky co-hosts Free Audio Bookshelf with fellow Wicked Women Writer (and HA episode 37 featured author) Rhonda Carpenter. I asked Arlene if she would share with us a little information about their blog-talk radio show. “We talked about where else we could get our books seen and heard and came up with this Free Audio Bookshelf (FAB). She walked me through the steps, and now her book, The Mark of a Druid is in archives there and I am playing my book, The Fox. We want listeners to come and talk to us live. We are there to answer questions about our books, writing and/or recording. I am happy as it is another place I can play The Fox and have people hear the music I used from Steve McDonald. When I am done with my book, we will invite other authors and play our recorded short stories as well.”

For many years Arlene has been working with nonprofit organizations to help her community and countless others. She mentioned how “lucky [she has been] to have had the time to help in many ways.”

Radasky explained to me that, “The Red Cross was a big part of [her] life for 15 years. Now Hospice of Santa Barbara is where [her] heart is. It is where [she is] supposed to be and without what [she] learned there, [she] could not have written The Fox. [She has] been a CASA working with foster children and the court system, and years with Recording for the Blind and Dyslexic. Each added to [her] life in many ways.”

Arlene has also “been fortunate to have walked upon each of the seven continents on the earth.” I wondered if those experiences had affected her writing in any way. She replied, “Yes [it] certainly has affected my writing. Because I have traveled I met many wonderful people and early came to realize the govts (sic) we see on the news are not anything like the people walking the streets. Everyone has the same needs and cares. That is what I remember when I write.”

Though, she has the title of “a scholar of ancient history,” Radasky “did not receive formal training in history. [H]owever ancient history and its mysteries have been a passion of [hers] for a very long time. [She has] read much and studied on [her] own for many years.”

Now on to the novel that has been said to be “so accurate of Celtic life” that it has been used by historians to teach their students…“The Fox”.

The Fox is about two couples who have to overcome difficulties. The ancient couple, who live in Scotland in the first century, have to overcome the Roman invasion. A modern archaeologist who finds where they lived, has to find herself after an abusive marriage. It is the story of how they make life changing decisions.”

For those of you that have heard that you can read The Fox online for free. You were right…Arlene explained to me about this decision. “Yes, this is very true. I decided early to give the story away in as many ways as I can and have never regretted it. I only decided to get it printed by a self-publisher after I had recorded it for Podiobooks.”

“Through them I am also available in the Barnes and Noble ebook catalog and found a new fan/friend through that list. He is going to paint a picture for me for the cover of Sea Hawk! One of the first places I put my book up was on and that is where I have found so many worldwide readers. The best thing to do to find where my book is posted would be to visit my website.”

Speaking of Sea Hawk, (the novel Radasky is currently working on) the story “is about a woman’s life journey in Great Britain about 2400BC.” She said she wanted “to write her struggle to live and love in those times. Civilization was changing and moving and many great things happened then.”

Being me, of course I asked for a little preview of the story and Arlene was gracious enough to let us read the first page of Sea Hawk.

Chapter 1

Skara Brae, The Mainland

Orkney Islands, Scotland

2400 BC


Waves crash against the cliffs. I stand on the brim of the outlook, leaning over the edge, my white hair drips sea spray. There it is, the rock ledge where the nest had been. My mind spins and I step back to regain my balance, memories beating their wings in my head.

It was here my life changed. This is where I stand in my dreams and watch as my home is destroyed. My dream. My vision.

The storm is whipping and dark, the wind strong, one that would sink our boats if the fishermen did not know their craft. I stand as tall as a henge-stone, buried to my ankles in the wind-blown sand and face my village. I see my home is there, on the edge of the circle, one of the last to be built on the side of the sea.

Something is out of place. The roof is not secure on my home. It blows up and away. I try to call out but my mouth is rigid and does not move. Helpless, I watch as the wind- carried sand fills my empty bed and removes all traces of my life. The black sea-waves finish the destruction by spinning the wall stones out to the depths where the whales play.

On my travels as an adult, after a sleep filled with pictures and sounds, I would awake after my vision, breathing hard and skin salty with sweaty fear deep in my gut, I knew it was real. My childhood home was being lost.

So I came back, to feel the stone walls of parent’s home. The stone walls still stand but the village is empty, my bed not slept in. My people are gone. The corridors outside the rooms echo with forgotten laughter and tears of my childhood, and now, the cry of baby gulls that nest in the rocky nooks.

My life is almost over. I do not walk on steady feet, chewing is a chore and my bowels do not behave as they should. And I am alone.

My love is dead. My son is dead. All but one of my daughters left behind.

I have lived more years than are remembered in the memories of those still alive. I have lived five times two hands and more. I am old. I am tired.

It is time and so I shall go to the tomb of my grandmother and mother, rub their skulls with my fingers and die.”


Being known as “a scholar of ancient history,” I was curious as to what sort of research Radasky has done for Sea Hawk. “In my research for The Fox, I came across two finds that were fascinating to me, Skara Brae and the Archer, a body found near Stonehenge. Both are of almost the same age and my mind started working on the story.”

“My library of research books and articles is just a big or bigger than for The Fox and I was able to take a trip to the Orkney Islands, have an archaeologist show me Skara Brae and ask her questions. That was very important to me.”

I also wondered “what sort of difficulties she had to face while writing 2,000+ years in the past.” Arlene said, “Two things come to mind, the first is the difference in language. I didn’t use contractions in the ancient conversations because that is what my ear heard when Lovern and Jahna were talking to me and the second was to be extra careful not to use modern words for things. I had to put myself there and describe in the terms they would have used, for instance no steel-grey colors and the like.”

Look forward to many poems and short stories from Radasky while she continues working on Sea Hawk. “I get inspirations all over the place, for poetry and short stories so I am usually doing something. I usually post them at my website in my blog. I really have to buckle down on Sea Hawk, and have promised myself to have the first draft done this year.”

To learn more about Arlene Radasky or read some of her work visit these websites:

Her website –

Twitter – @aradasky

Second Life name – Imarad Breen

The Fox can be downloaded at this site –

Her poem Forever,_poetry_and_short_stories/Entries/2009/4/19_Forever_released_again!.html

and short story Farmer’s Market,_poetry_and_short_stories/Entries/2010/1/16_Farmer’s_Market.html